grappling to nowhere in the midst of everything,
wandering about but in no particular direction.
Curse the fate that caused this prolonged misery!
This may be the end; an ode to my final fight
against this deviant emotion and truthful reality.
Bless my decision o Lord! Bade me your knowledge,
and free me from this lies I had believed for a long time
Set my spirit free in the wilderness above.
No more harness, and no more pretensions
just truth and light-headedness that I wish I had
if not for these brandished words...
