I'm pessimistic... yes... hence i got a negative disposition...

but what's in it... that let me cling to it...

My failure to trust...

i only got an exclusive people that i trust the most...

they can only be counted in one's fingers...

but why do i have to doubt people?

why do i need to scrutinize their actions...?

why...? because i'm also afraid that they will leave me behind...

i'm afraid of the rejection... the consequences it will bring...

everything associated with it...