if you feel alone, you feel emptiness. this is not just a thought, but this is an experience. everything around seems boring. life is so dull, no spice, not any excitement happening. you feel that everything seems to be routinary. waking up, doing something to kill the time, eat, then back to sleep. i feel like i'm a robot, mechanically doing things without enjoying it. i feel no trace of happiness what so ever everyday i wake up.

though i feel blessed that i wake up everyday, eat everyday, live the day, i feel something is not right. i feel that i'm missing something, that same something i was looking for since i was a teenager. that same thing that's keeping my life so weary.

i feel so bothered, maybe...