was life harsh on me?

Sometimes I think, was life harsh on me? Or I just missed a lot of opportunities it offered?

I just don't know; maybe both had occurred. Now I'm at lost, don't know where to start or where to begin. A direction-less human being that doesn't know what road to take!

But I still believe that this feeling would end, it just takes a matter of time though. I just need to know where I really should be heading, and from there I know I would grow and blossom to become a productive person.

Displayed here is my feelings of emptiness, psychologically what is called existential vacuum in Gestalt theory, I think. So far, my aim is to eradicate this type of feelings so as to live peacefully and sanely.