my faith had been fading, and i feel it deep inside. i know i had been truly bad. i know that i almost completely lost my self-control. i know i shouldn't be blasphemous. i know that i should limit my cursing. yet i can't stop it. i can't control my own thoughts. i don't know anymore who to believe. i don't even know if i can still trust them... the religious ones God called upon for service. i don't know.