Thursday, June 30, 2005
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
It's a bit strange since i'm a catholic, yet i really don't have the slightest idea. I was raised by devout catholics and studies in a catholic school, yet i think this commandment, a compulsary and mandatory declaration from God, craved in every stone tablets found in churches, that every christian should worship the sabbath day appears routinary to the extent that its true meaning was already hovered until it totally faded in this generation. another routinary thing that i feel i normally do was praying for divine providence. The prayers i should say are only memorized but the meaning completely lost.
I really don't know now. this is what i feel every time i cross a church. what is your meaning to me? I know this post would lead to sin, mortal perhaps, but i'm confused, so feed me with knowledge, so as to accept this routinary thing whole-heartedly and feel the presence that indeed God is here in this world and not a make believe by people of the olden times.
Sunday, June 12, 2005
Yun na kinabukasan pag gising ko ng hapon mga 3, hindi daw kumain yung aso, nagulat ako at sabi ng kapaitd ko pakakainin daw niya ito ng asukal baka kc nalason sa labas, sabi naman ng tito ko may trankaso daw yung aso. hanggang sa ikalawang araw na niyang ganun di pa rin cia kumakain - ang palaging irarason ng tito trinangkaso daw yung aso. may trinangkaso ba na hindi mainit? may trinangkaso ba na ayaw kumain kahit uminom man lang? tapos ang nakakaasar pa dito maririnig mo yung tatay mo mismo na sisigundahan yung sinabi ng magaling ko tiyo na di naman vet. at sasabihing na baka nga nung pinaliguan sa ulan. ilan beses ko ring itong narinig sa sarili ko mismong ama. ilang araw na ba ang nakalipas ng paliguan ko sia sa ulan? hindi lng naman cia yung pinaliguan ko, dalawang aso po iyon, bat hindi nagkasakit yung isang aso at namatay?
akala kc ng magaling kong ama na hindi ko alam na ako ang sinisisi nia kung bakit nagkasakit yung aso. kasalanan ko pa siguro ngayon. iyon yung nakakapeste dun eh, alaga nga cia tapos pag may nangyaring masama palagi na lang ako yung sisisihin. ako yung dahilan ng mga ganito-ganyan. nakakaasar lang. tapos nung tinanong ko yung nanay ko ang sabi niya may dala daw malaking buto yung aso pag-uwi nia nung isang araw. kinakain daw nia. eh nakita pala nilang may dalang buto yung aso eh bat di pa nila inalis, alam naman nilang bawal yun sa mga tuta. tapos sasabihin nilang kasalanan ko dahil pinaliguan ko sa ulan. anong sense nun naghuhugas kamay sila? naghahanap ng pagpapasahan ng sisi? bakit ako na lng yung palaging nasisisi? wala akong ginagawang masama, bat ako nlang palagi?
kung hindi lng kayo ang nagpapaaral sa akin matagal na siguro akong umalis sa bahay na ito.
Tuesday, June 7, 2005
Do I need to pay homage to the deities?
Do I need to follow and obey their every desire?
As far as I recall, I was born with such freedom,
And no one shall reclaim such birth right!
Thou art presumes thy prowess got a strong hold.
Yet why do thee crumble with no response!
Why do thee use oppression to tame the wild?
Could it be that thy fear becomes gruesome?
Open thy eyes, thee mystically blind,
For thee to see the reality, you've been denying.
I'm no slave for thee, and never will I be!
So put thy dreams to the seclusion!
Hell, I'd made the wrong choice,
Of keeping my true identity to hold.
Hence, thee manipulated me,
With every opportunity thy grasp.
Now I had enough, and my patience grew thinner.
I'd better stand and speak for my rights,
Rather than harnessing me as one of thy slaves,
Torn out of the freedom one should enjoy.
Huh, but who are you anyway?
Do you think you're one of those few who should be respected?
Who are you then to accuse me?
As far as I recall I had no debt to pay!
Saturday, June 4, 2005
sana tuwing umuulan ganito nalang palagi, dalhin ng langit ang lahat ng problema ko at sumabay na makiiyak sa mga iyon.