Wednesday, June 21, 2006

about me?

I've been thinking what good answer i'm going to say everytime i'm being asked about this question:

"Tell me something about yourself?"

'coz everytime they ask me about it, the only answers i'm saying were, i like reading books, love music, graduated as a psychology student... blah, blah and blah.

so now i'm trying to learn what i really like and dislike. here's a few list, not that significant but can reflect what i'm really thinking of.

1. I love original fries, but not yummy fries.

2. I hated hypocrites. Just be true to yourself period.

3. I don't like people telling about something, then in the end you'll learn about it.

4. I don't like people talking about you behind your back. If they do, just be sure it won't reach you.

5. My silence says everything.

6. i like being exposed to mental hospitals, but i hated normal people acting as abnormal.

7. I may be clumsy and stupid sometimes, yet it doesn't mean that i'm not going to verify all the information.

8. I like english, but hated it as a profession.

9. I love faithful converts, but disgusted with people who are not true with themselves.

10. I like angels with wings, halos, and in white gowns, but is totally disgusted with devils disguising themselves by wearing angel's masks.

Thursday, June 15, 2006

i'm trying to understand myself better, and luckily i had uncovered a part of me. few people i know, as i compared myself with them, had in them a glint or a little part of nationalism that was instilled in them when they were young. however, i don't have. since i was young, as i deemed my memory to be correct, i wanted to evade this country. i never even understand why i recited and sang the national anthem and that "panunumpa sa watawat". all i do was to mimic the expression, as though i felt it the same way as they do. now, i am certain, i don't feel as if a pint of nationalism had ever ran inside my veins.

being a filipino is a nice thing to say, if and only if, one is viewed in a way based on their attitudes, work habits, intellect and abilities, and not as a general whole that filipinos are like this "corrupt, dishonest, untrustworthy" and the like.

Monday, June 5, 2006

For the last time i plead to all... i need sleeping pills... this is not for suicide purposes, but for sleeping purpose... really! I can no longer adjust my own biological clock...

Sunday, June 4, 2006

You Are a Coy Flirt!

You're not so much a flirt as the type of girl who draws flirts in
While you look like you're just relaxing, secretly you've got your game on
A little look here, a little wink there... you give men the encouragement they crave
And in return, they flirt up a storm with you - while you just sit and smile

Friday, June 2, 2006

i can't sleep... i needed sleeping pills... can anybody send me one... i hate being an insomiac...

Thursday, June 1, 2006

if you feel alone, you feel emptiness. this is not just a thought, but this is an experience. everything around seems boring. life is so dull, no spice, not any excitement happening. you feel that everything seems to be routinary. waking up, doing something to kill the time, eat, then back to sleep. i feel like i'm a robot, mechanically doing things without enjoying it. i feel no trace of happiness what so ever everyday i wake up.

though i feel blessed that i wake up everyday, eat everyday, live the day, i feel something is not right. i feel that i'm missing something, that same something i was looking for since i was a teenager. that same thing that's keeping my life so weary.

i feel so bothered, maybe...